Nothing is Impossible with God

 We have not been strangers to supernatural God ordained miracles. Once again, we have been incredibly humbled, deeply touched and blessed in one of the most incredibly intimate ways God could have intervened in our doubting hearts. We shared with you several months ago that we were told that we wouldn’t be able to conceive and carry a baby of our own again. We have a special case and situation that makes getting pregnant very difficult, near impossible (we presumed impossible), and in addition my doctors have been concerned for my health and the probability of carrying a healthy baby if we did happen to get pregnant by some bizarre circumstance. Near impossible and doubtably unsafe, over the course of the summer as part of my mourning and struggle to deal with the reality of not holding another child of my own, I let go of all of our baby stuff that Charlotte had out grown and I let go of my dream. I wept and beat my breast in protest and then in absolute defeat I buried my dream deep and apart from myself. 

I had to let it go. It was impossible. So, of course we would pursue adoption. We would save and save, study, plan, pray and prepare our hearts for the lost children waiting for us. We are still saving, studying, planning and praying, but God is sovereign, and He had shown us that the time to adopt is not now. So we began taking a few steps back and turned our focus back on our relationship with Christ and our little family. 

Then over Christmas a miracle meets us in our broken and struggling faith. God spoke; He speaks in many ways, sometime more distinctly and sometimes subtly. When God spoke to us, through His God ways, He spoke so clearly and with such authority and love that we could not deny His voice. What we heard brought us to our knees in startled amazement: “You are going to have a baby. Through My hand alone, you will experience the beauty and joy of bearing another child into this world.” He might as well have said: “You say that this is impossible, but I tell you that NOTHING is impossible for Me.” 

A few weeks later a bright pink plus sign validated and proved the incredible miracle growing inside of me. For indeed, as God revealed to us, we are pregnant again; against all the odds and our doubting hearts, only just over a year after giving birth to our first child. God has a plan for our lives that we haven’t even begun to understand or foresee. We can’t begin to imagine where God is going to lead us or how He is going to use us for His glory through this life. Just when we think we have things figured out and a sound decision or plan to pursue for our family, He brings us to our knees in humility and shows us that our ways are not His ways. This baby is just another step down the road He is leading us and once again, we have been incredibly humbled and left in awe at His hand in our simple little lives. 

Our greatest fear in having another baby has been the health of the baby through the pregnancy and my health. The week our pregnancy was confirmed, I started to panic, but I felt the Lord impressing on my heart that He would carry us through this pregnancy. I didn’t need to be afraid. After meeting with my doctor and discussing the concerns we are all very surprised that I’ve not had any complications so far. Though I am still considered a high-risk pregnancy due to our complications with Charlotte, if God decided to give us a baby against the odds, than I can trust that whatever the pregnancy holds, He has us in His hands the whole way through. So peace fills my heart where fear and anxiety use to occupy. 

Dear friends and family, brothers and sisters in Christ, we are having another baby and we are not the least bit prepared but we are excited none-the-less. We are determined to take each day through this pregnancy with joy and savor the blessing it is to carry an unborn child inside me. When I was pregnant with Charlotte, it was a magical and amazing experience to say the least, but it was also wrought with so many complications, stress and pain that it ended up putting kind of a damper on the whole event. This time around I want to embrace the pregnancy and relish in the miracle of life budding inside me. 

Nothing is impossible with God. We learn that more everyday. I will be reminded daily for the rest of my life with every baby kick and slobbery kiss, that God is greater than I. As I cherish these moments as my stomach grows and the little flutters of baby toes, and look forward to the day when I’ll hold in my child in my arms I will remember that truly nothing is impossible with my God. 

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With an Earnest Love,

Leah