Faith Moved Our Seas

I am more than amazed when again I realize what has transpired through these last few months, startled when I imagine what these next few months will entail, and humbled when I begin to have a faint understanding that Gods plans for this fagile life are so far above and beyond what I can begin to fathom. Just over a month ago, Alex and I found ourselves desprately pleading and imploring God to interceed and give us hope and direction for our pending marriage. We believed in all sincerety that God was leading us to marriage and that the day was coming soon, we believed that He was leading us into ministry, though we knew not how would attain the schooling and training we needed and in the meantime meet all of the requirements set down before us. I still feel the strands of helplessness, and hopelessness that ate at our hearts driving us restless and fatiuged in every area of our lives. We were so deeply convicted and yet the authorities in our lives contradicted every small portion of our beliefs.I remember feeling like we drowning in a sea of violent storms, tossed against every celft and jagged mountain side of every island within sight, fighting with every small fiber of hope we had left, clinging to that unmistakable conviction so deeply set within. It took us realizing that we alone, could do nothing within God's gace to change the strom, for if God truly placed those convitions in our hearts than God alone would be able to carry us to shore. It came down to choice; we could continue to fight against the sea and storms or we could submit ourselves completely to God and trust that His plan was deeper than what we were compeled to believe. When we initially realized that God was the one who convicted our heart in the first place, the notion that He had plan for the storm no longer seemed so unrealistic. It wasn't such an impossible idea that God had a plan, and a perfect time for His plan to take effect. God continued to place people and scripture in our path daily that pressed the reality of His unending authority, and conferming the convictions in our hearts. We could not deny the fact that He was asking us to submit to our authorities, and simply trust that He would work out the details, meanwhile being prepared to reaspond to the leading of Chirst whatever the cost, the moments it was clear and undeniable that it was His will. It Is not easy to submit yourself to a person or persons when you believe with so much conviction what the Lord is asking and leading, that you are willing to pay any cost to see it through; to choose to trust God in a situation that feels hopeless and entirely helpless at times. But we realized also that God doesn't ask easy things of His people, but in every situation and circumstance His grace and strength has carried His believers through. So we gave in, we gave up fighting. And we prayed, and believed that God was going to make a way. I look back today, and I marvel at how such a simple act of obedience could be so difficult and painstaking and yet in spite of everything prove to be such a profound testament of faith and God who's grace and mercy far exceeds the pathetic expectations of a man who can not begin to comprehend a God whose power and glory we will never fully grasp. Not two weeks later God lead us into contact with a school that would be able to train us and prepare us for the ministry on our hearts, and a degree that miraculously met all of our needs and requirements, in addition to providing jobs that would provide for our needs. More so than all of this the hearts of our authorities were changed and melted in a matter of days, and we were blessed to pursue the passions of our hearts. In three days, we found ourselves lined up for new jobs, enrolling in a school we only dared dream about, and then engaged to be married and begin our life ministry as a couple. What once seemed impossible to us was and is even now placed in our laps challenging us and calling us to rise above our expectations and fulfill the expectations of God, just as He has called each and everyone of us to do. It is hard to believe that these past few years have only been the beginning of something deeper and more foreign then anything I can possibly predict. We have dreams and convictions, hopes and fears, but only God knows what our future holds. It such an odd and peculiar feeling to be a few months away from everything we have prayed for these last few years and then to have our entire lives waiting for us. What ever awaits us down the road, I wait with eager expectation, for if this past few glorious years have only been the beginning, there is no say of what we many encounter through the years. Faith has carried us so far down this road, and only faith in the power and truth of Chirst will see us through to the end. Faith really can move mountains, in our case it moved the raging seas. Here we stand as two only days away from being made one, and walking forward toward the throne of God. We are actually here in the moment experiencing thoughts and feelings we only dreamed about just weeks ago. What an incredible God.